Today I left the U.S. It felt wrong. I felt like I should stay, be with my friends and family, specifically [my oldest brother. I watch movies when they say “they would have wanted you to go” but it is COMPLETELY different when it’s your real life. Every time I closed my eyes on the place I would think of Reggie or my family. To go away now makes it feel unreal. Like he just went to Hawaii. I don’t think I ever taken a death this bad. Except maybe Nate [my dog] & Nikki [my cousin], but I don’t know. I’m very lucky to be on this trip so I should enjoy it.
HOWEVER, this plane ride sucks!! SEVENTEEN HOURS ON A PLANE! Ridiculous. I also kept thinking about the [Philadelphia] Eagles game. I’ll live South Africa up like Reggie would have wanted me to. I love my big brother and I’ll miss him terribly. RIP Reginald Streater.